Just like the author of the September 21st reading, growing up in a dysfunctional family I became a fearful person who dreaded change. Trying to work around a person with borderline personality disorder, I was so adapted to chaos, that I had this sense that I could "deal" with it. I am glad that Al-anon helped me to let go of this illusion. I have learned it is more honest to admit that I am powerless over my borderline family member. They live in a disease much like alcoholism. I did not create it, I can't cure it.
The changes involved in my study of Al-anon, have had a positive effect on me. I can more readily accept that change is inevitable in normal life. Fear still comes up from time to time, but today I let my Higher Power help me walk through it. Belief in a Power greater than me is stronger than my fear; "I choose to trust this Power to know exactly what I need and when I need it."
Today's Reminder is a good one:
"Today I can accept the changes occurring in my life and live more comfortably with them. I will trust in the God of my understanding, and my fears will diminish. I relax in this knowledge, knowing I am always taken care of when I listen to my inner voice."
We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. Charles R. Swindoll