As our case is new, we must think and act anew. Abraham Lincoln.
Long before I came into program I would find such dissatisfaction with myself that I ran myself around in circles with negativity. I would think, think and think myself into confusion.
In Program, I learned to take time to just "Think," and not overdo it.
Today I know not only to acknowledge whatever I feel, but to "choose where I focus my attention." As the October 5th reading says, our path of recovery challenges me to recognize positive qualities in myself, my circumstances, and other human beings. The structure of the program-- attending meetings, writing down the things that I am grateful for, and talking with other Program members--all help me to Look for the Good. As I practice Willingness, gradually my attributes --and others'--become apparent.
"I believe I have a beautiful spirit that has been created for some purpose. The people and situations I encounter each day have beauty and purpose. I can begin to look for the positive in everything I do and see. The perspective I've gained by doing so has shown me that some of the most difficult times in my life have produced the most wonderful changes."
Changing my long-established patterns of depression, Eeyore-like complaining or self-criticism, is not easy. But am worth the effort of replacing a negative attitude with a positive one today.
"Sometimes I go about pitying myself
And all the while I'm being carried across the sky
By beautiful clouds. Ojibway Indian saying