Boy am I triggered by what others think of me! I have someone in my 12-step community who judges me as not making progress, because of my relapse last December.
I don't think he realizes how cunning, baffling, and powerful our emotions are! He has certain beliefs about how I should behave and how I should look if my program medicine is powerful.
I am just at a place where I don't want to have anything to prove. After all, it had been five years since my last relapse. I just want to be able to appreciate that. And forgive myself.