After years of working the 12-steps to the best of my ability, I found myself stuck in self-pity and resentment over my dysfunctional family member's inability to give me the emotional support I wanted. One evening during a meditation on the Sixth and Seventh Steps, three words seemed to flash into my mind: We were entiredly ready to have God remove all these defects of character, and.... we humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
I suddenly realized that much of my zealous working the program had still been an exercise of my own limited power. My ah-ha was the realization that I needed to Let Go and Let God, in order to free myself from problem thinking and habits that take me ever away from sanity!
"I want to be ready for shortcomings to be removed, and I will do what I can to prepare. I can [practice] a non-judgemental awareness of myself, accept what I discover, and become fully willing to change. But I lack the power to heal myself. Only my Higher Power can do that!"
Terrific example of using that Support system.
ReplyDeleteThanks for that persective, therapydoc!
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