Today I see a pattern in which I was often eager to know my options, long before the time was right for me to make choices. I would work so hard to get the right information, only to find it made me nuts. This almost happened to me yesterday in my desire to wean of medications.
But in looking back now, older and somewhat wiser, I see instances in which I thought I needed an immediate solution of action. Today I see that I was not prepared to act. Only later, when I was read, did I find all the information I needed.
This reading is such a blessing. I share the remainder verbatim from February 14th's reading in CTC:
"When I know too much about my options before the time is right to exercise these options, I tend to use the information only to drive myself crazy. That's why today, when I am feeling confused, I try to consider it grace. It may not yet be time for me to act.
I think that dealing with confusion can be like cooking. If the bread isn't done, I don't take it out of the oven and insist that it is time to eat. I let it finish baking. If a clear solution to a problem hasn't shown itself yet, I can trust that it will appear when the time is right.
I will thank my Higher Power for whatever I experience today, even if I feel troubled or confused. I know that every experience can offer me a gift. All I have to do it be willing to look at my situation in the light of gratitude."
"Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn whatever state I may be in, therein to be content." Helen Keller