Like the author in Today's reading from Courage to Change, I too have built "a lifetime of dreams.. reserved for a special day called 'Someday'".
As I look at the closing of this day, let me consider the reading honestly and see how far I have come.
As a child, I waited for others to come and knock on my door, remove me from the dysfunction in my family home. I waited in vain, for my family to recognize what really was the matter and understand why I spent as much time away from home as I could. Finally, I left home, still hoping for a someday when our family would be happy and loving.
I thought I had an endless canvas ahead of me as a young adult.
Just like the author, much of my life, pre-program, was full of thoughts like, "Someday I'll begin-or end--that project. Someday I'll call that friend with whom I've lost touch. Someday I'll let them know how I feel. Someday I'll be happy. I'm going to take that trip, find that job, speak my mind. Someday. Just wait and see."
I learned if I wanted friends, I had to be one. I learned if I had dreams I had to take steps, even tiny ones, to make them come true. I must ever be aware when I am living in Someday and forgetting that for the Someday to deliver what I dream, I need to act today.
I still have so many dreams I want to live, that are not real in my life yet. I admit, I still dream of what I want to be when I grow up! This childlike part of me is something I appreciate today. In the meantime, while I wait for my next career to take form, I am learning to make more gainful use of time.
Twenty four hours won't allow me to do everything I want, so I must choose wisely. 'By asking my Higher Power for guidance and by taking some small step in the direction of my choice, I will be able to accomplish more than I would ever have thought possible."
Let me remember this:
To wait for "..a blue moon, a rainy day, the 366th day of the year"... is putting my dreams a last priority.
"Each indecision brings its own delays and days are lost lamenting over lost day...What you can do or think you can do, begin it. For boldness has Magic, Power, and Genius in it." Johann Wolfgang von Goethe