January 8, 2015

When the Words Hurt

I often revel in the good that people in our rooms say, gems of wisdom.  But there are times when I would rather listen to people talk than read what they write.  Somehow I need to hear the tone, see the facial expression, and then I am better able to take what I need and leave the rest. 

When I read these words, today, "The important thing is to be KIND to yourself and to get that critical voice in your head to SHUT UP!" I so wanted to say something.  I wanted to say, how can I be kind to myself and treat the "voice" in my head with a SHUT UP. Something terribly incongruent in that makes me want to speak up, protest, or at least question.

But the person and I are not on equal terms, any longer, and so I must just go about my business. I think that hurts more than anything.  Not to speak up, seems like a disservice to this person who was once my friend…
But maybe on this one, I am supposed to be silent and speak my own truth on something totally different, from the simple well of this day. From my own disappointments, helpful suggestions… 

2 comments:

  1. For me, the critical voice in my head was not me, it was the abuser. I had internalised all of the negative messages I'd heard as a child from that person, and her nagging voice in my internal dialogue, was a backdrop to my life, before Al-Anon.
    I needed to tell her to shut up in order to find peace and serenity. I needed to talk back to those messages.

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  2. I really appreciate your contrasting thought, T. It is with peace that I consider it. Needed those words, today.

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