If only I could say this of my dysfunctional family member: “He's finally minding his own business.”
Maybe I would do better to laugh, shedding some lightness on “a serious subject, [my own] defects of character that seem so hard to shake. Laughter makes [my own] frailties seem easier to bear, and we can forgive [others as we forgive ourselves] for our imperfections.”
My recent conversation with my mom, which I may share here in the coming days, makes me very open to March 11th’s reading in CTC. I do want myself “ try less, accept more, and let go of my impatience, self-criticism, and self-hatred.”
In that vein, I am grateful for the simplest changes in my attitude towards myself. It lightens my heart, to see that I am less likely to cringe at my flaws or use them to beat myself up.
Let me use this prayer suggestion: "Help me Higher Power… to remember that the purpose of making mistakes is to prepare myself to make more; help me remember that when I am no longer making mistakes, I'll be out of this world."
That last line makes me chuckle.
I love that I see the ways in which I am forever a beginner. There are challenges for me to face, even in picking up the phone. I can’t assume that my most problematic people will always be the same puzzle tomorrow that they were yesterday, because life is ever changing. Because I too am in constant change, “every tiny action I take involves some risk of making a mistake.”
I agree that it takes courage to participate in life. Let me take a moment to applaud myself; I am doing a terrific job just by showing up and giving it a try.
"My Higher Power is the confidence within me that makes me unafraid to make mistakes." As We Understand